hello! this would effectively be my first post on this new blog. many who have either found that my old link did not work probably didn't realize that i had changed my link. well, frankly, that last blog was dark. but i guess, everyone in their life time has to at least for once, decide to move on and be optimistic. even if only for a while, but as they say, trying never did hurt anyone. hardly now, i suppose, would you see things about my school namely the institution i'm studying in currently or things that overly upset me. i'm sure it's rather well known i'm a relatively emotional girl. i pleace full responsibility on the hormones! maybe after all the times i've told people to stand still and smell the roses and be glad of life, i've decided to take some of my own advice. but nevertheless, i will most probably still have my ranting days. after all, every girl is entitled to some emotional days. but i promise, they will decrease in number but as for the darkness of those posts, i cannot promise you any light yet.


so, it has been a while since i last blogged. as you should know, it's almost about time i started mugging for my 'a' level examinations. i have received back some of my prelim papers and you know what? i think my resolve to study has just got a bit stronger. i love those days that i have this need to study, to just sit down in the living room and study. but now that i've got my new table with all that extra space. studying in the room with the air conditioning is good enough for me. i only hate those days when all i want to do is laze around, come online doing nothing meaningful and even continuing my stories doesn't hold that much interest! i really hate days like those. but now, i really need to get the studying going. i really, really do not want to be crying hopelessly next year. i wouldn't allow myself to fail at the 'o' levels, i'm not allowing myself to fail at the 'a' levels.


my new fetish! well, i wouldn't call it a fetish, i just re-discovered disney songs. it all started with the little mermaid's song in my head one day, part of your world. once i had downloaded that song, i downloaded a whole load of other disney songs. ranging from snow white to mulan to the lion king. talk about a wide range of songs. and i finally found my sound of music song! the one where the children sing before they leave for bed at one of their father's party? i tried to find the song sixteen going on seventeen but the song just wouldn't download! *pouts* but either way, i'm still happy with my other disney songs! and surprisingly maybe not that surprising but disney songs really can lift your spirits! well, if you do want any disney songs, don't hesitate to ask me for them! i'm always willing to spread the love! *smiles*


father khoo's birthday dinner is coming up again. and it seems like only yesterday that he celebrated his 65th birthday, and all that nonsense was happening around church. but i've decided to let it go after my eighteen birthday, so there are just really nice memories. but this year, i'm determined to make better memories! especially since aunty veronica [my mummy's god daughter's mummy], lynn [mummy's god daughter], aunty alice [grandma's sister from london], aunty lily + uncle michael [my god parents!], aunty mary, my grandma and grandpa and including mummy, that makes a total of ten! i so cannot wait until the 8th of october! although i would be having a mathematics paper the next day, but wells. amanda will do it! she has done it before, and she will do it again! furthermore, victor and sharon would be there i think! i can't wait to see them again! i am really determined to start working immediately after the 'a' levels. i mean, i really need the money! and really, i want to work for the next 6 months next year before i enter university. and hopefully, i'd still be able to find a part time job admist my studying! i can't imagine all the expenses i've got to incur! *shudders* but really, i want desperately to get into uni. i think it will be rather fun, don't you? *beams*


anyhow, i had better get going. i need to pack my bag for school as well as do some slight revision before i go and sleep tonight. i would most probably be only blogging once a week or once very two weeks? *sharks* i have forgotten to print gen's birthday letter! better head on to do it now, i will be back as soon as possible. but i can't promise i'd be back in a day or so. perhaps a few days or a week =X and since you've read this far, i'm sure you'd be more than able to waste a few more minutes and tag me! *smiles* love you all!

<3 you always