good evening.


i am here only because i am bored mapling. there are only so many chickens and ducks amanda can kill and so much talk she can tolerate before it either gets on her nerves or bores the living day lights out of her. so anyway, there are some interesting things i'd like to blog about anyway, so i decided why not. since i'm waiting for jun hao to get his ass home before we train our dragon knight. hope we don't give up half way as we did with our bowgil. but with his contacts and my determination, i'm sure we'll be able to manage *smiles*


swimming yesterday was wonderful. the weather was cool and the sun was still out when we got to the pool. and about half way through, it started to rain. it really isn't as fun to dance in the rain as it is to swim in the rain. the water ran so cold that it sent shivers and goosebumps along my skin. but the contrast between the sound of water hitting water, heavily and the soft sloshing of water when you go under, really is soothing. to the mind, as well as to the soul. and a troubled soul like mine finds immense pleasure in the sound of water. the water was really cold and i just thought for a second, that maybe god had heard my silent plea. to make my heart as cold as ice. but no matter how many laps i swam, how i pushed and pushed with the water beating down on my back, the pain kept chipping away at the ice as blood dripped. i wanted to carry on swimming, swimming until my arms and legs gave out. swimming until i was too damn tired to think about anything. swimming until my heart froze. but there is only so long a girl can indulge herself when time is ticking away, and she's exercising on an empty stomach. but at the end of this experiece, i must admit that i would love to swim when it rains again. and the workout, was really good.


after the swim we went to amk central for dinner. and i've come to question my cny outfit. sure, i have found the top and shoes, but there are other problems. finding the skirt and other accessories don't really matter, but other problems. heat, that is one of them. and i'm thinking of doing my hair into a bun. maybe i can see if ethel's free to teach me one of these days *smiles* sofisitication rather than my usual messy style. it's at least another twenty days more, so we'll see how it goes. i hope everything goes as planned.


as ben has reminded me than valentine's is coming up, i've yet to decided what i wanted to do. well, there was note past tense nicholas. but he's probably chained up at home and with homework so he's of no help. my other yearly engagement has been cancelled, which i suppose only goes to show that i really have no power whatsoever to keep my engagments. *argh* then i was thinking of bringing those two girls out, for a evening of fun. but since i can only make it on a saturday, and valentine falls on a wednesday, they would have school the next day. and then, there is always that guy. i don't think i'm even going to give him a chance. there is a lot of say about a guy when he skips from your friend to you. really a lot that don't come out in words. so yes, amanda will be spening this valentine's day alone. i'm sure junhao will be out with his girlfriend, probably romancing her and having her tell him how foolish his efforts have been. even ben, i think he's attached, would have his own date on valentine or even engagements with friends. i guess this is one of the setbacks of being on your own. so i think i'll just stay home, snuggled with a book and possibly inuyasha at 11pm at night. at least you can depend on books keeping you company, no matter your mood. maybe that's why i love them, and also because they bring me to another world. where i don't have to worry so much.


well, jun hao has returned from his grandma's place. so i'm going to help him train out dragon knight. i will blog again soon, and hopfully i'll be in a better mood. take care. thank you for reading. *hugs* god bless. sweet dreams. i love you.

<3 you always