be careful, you might lose something important

"be not afraid of life. believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact." william james

"be not afraid of greatness. some men are born great, some achieve greatness and some have greatness thrust upon them." william shakesphere

"appreciation can make a day, even change a life. your willingness to put it into words is all that is necessary." margaret cousins

"those who can laugh without a cause have either found the true meaning of happiness or have gone stark raving mad." norm papernick

wishes are a dream your heart makes

straight 'a's for my 'a' level.
cd player cum radio.
a set of close and really good friends.
flat screen monitor.
creative zen.
memory cards for my digi cam.
charms for my charm bracelet.
head phones.
more books for my reading pleasure.
playboy print wallet.
jars of clay cd.
corset top with lace and strings.
that special somone to brighten up my day.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

loving you at 12:42 PM

good afternoon.

well, i blogged yesterday. but you wouldn't have seen the post because i deleted it. there really is no point in analyzing what i already know. i'm always the next choice. anyhow, those of you who know. i trust you and love you enough to tell you. those of you who don't, don't worry your heads about it because i don't want to trouble you with all my whinings and pouting, it might push you over the edge. so yes, i deleted the post. after talking to josh, and myself, i guess it's just best to take each day as it comes. and not to let the pain eat me alive. because i just refuse to be controlled by something as weak as pain. anyhow, i will only say it is a day that will be locked in my memory forever, even when thinking about it brings tears. sad tears, happy tears. they taste and look the same don't they? anyhow, have been tossing and turning in bed the entire night. just got my hair done, and am waiting anxiously for benji to call. he's not at home, he's not answer his phone calls or messages. can you tell i'm worried? anyhow, just hope he's ok. since he refuses to talk to me *pout* but i guess sometimes people just need their space.

i'm over deligted with my hair. and it wasn't as expensive as i thought it would have been, but then again, there were always the other factors. hahas. anyhow, i'm delighted. and i'm making sure no one's going to spoil my day, today and tomorrow. it still hurts to think about him, but i'm coping. at least i've got josh to make me laugh. i thank god everyday for alex, if it weren't for him, i would have never met josh. anyhow, i'm getting down again. thinking about him always pulls my mood to the lowest it can go. but i'm determined not to let this rule my actions. because if he's determined to play, i can play as well.

ah, see. talking about his has totally destroyed my mood. i shall go and listen to music and stare at my hair. maybe it'll lift my spirits. hahas. blog again after cny celebrations and stuff. and reactions to my hair, hahas. *hugs* thanks for reading! loveya.

loving you comes so naturally to me, and i don't know why.

<3 you always

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the girl
~amanda germaine~
~~eighteen~~ going on nineteen
ijian. cjcian.
cancer. 23june1988.
single, ~~available~~ and enjoying every minute of it!