good morning.


it has been a while since i last blogged. i cannot say my mood has improved since then, but there have been highs since then. and yes, they were triggered by a guy. but more about that later. i've already decided to go all out for cny. i figure if i have to see my whole family for reunion dinner and cny morning, i would at least want to be happy rather than pouting my way through the lunar new year. and besides, this might most probably be my only chance at rebellion. hahas. amanda needs a cause, she always does. nothing much has happened since sunday. ben's still hurting. i should knock him over the head with my three inches but i'm afraid to break them and i know what it's like to go through it so i'm going to give him a break. aren't i such a sweet girl? yeah right anyway! jessica is still alive. i'm going to head over to her blog this evening to tag, she says it's a ghost town. apparently she hasn't been here! hahas. i don't think anyone comes here anymore. but i guess because i hardly talk to anyone, this is probably my only outlet for frustration and nonsensical talk. but then again, now there is nick. hahas!


if you have read my msn nickname, yes, there are too many similarities for me to ignore this damn fluttering of my non exsitent heart. maybe this time i won't screw up and lose a friend. but i must say, he does make me smile much more than he ever did. i really should stop comparing because it's making him look bad. hahas! maybe i really am over him, and trust me, you don't know how happy that makes me. because there is no way this girl is going to cry over a b*stard who doesn't have enough balls to break up with a girl properly. and i'm not sorry if i'm insulting your manhood. *sticks tongue out at you*


i did my toe nails yesterday! hahas. talking to nick over the phone probably dulled the pain, especially when my other baby toe nail got chipped off, again. *argh* i've got baby soft nails. anyhow, there are done and wonderful. beautiful. and i absolutely adore them! i'm planning to do the same for my finger nails. i sincerely hope i can protect them until cny, so i don't have to redo them. because the nail art is really good. by the way, i'm talking about my fingernails. i doubt i'll be able to destroy my toe nails and those seeing me before cny, don't you dare step on my toes! there, my tow nails are safe. i think. hahas. wells, work is starting soon.


i'll delve more into stuff later. i'm too bored now to talk. or maybe i'm smiling too much and there isn't anything else i want to talk about but him. hahas. no, i don't think this is love. maybe it's just strong friendship. but i must say, my heart feels differently for everyone. elvin. ben. moses. nick. zac. alph. max. ivan. no one really evokes the same emotions. hahas. i'm a weird girl, i know. well, going to swim tonight! *dances around in a circle* gotta run! take care, thank you for reading. please please leave a tag. *hugs* love you!

<3 you always