good morning.


i would blog about all the things that made me smile today, because the things that made me want to cry are just too much and too complicated to be written about. for one, seeing jess in the morning brightened up my day. and that evening conversation with ben, just makes me want to smile. there really are only a few people who can make me laugh when i want to cry, to be happy when i'm down in the dumps. oh goodness me, my eyes are dying here. i better head to bed. i'm sorry, i will blog again tomorrow.


i can't believe how much i miss you. i can't believe how much i'm thinking about you. i want to stop this aching pain, but i'm thankful for this pain. because it means i'm still alive, and that i can still love. afterall, what is worse than not being able to love? when we talk on the phone, i don't think about how it used to be. when you touch me, i don't think about how his hand used to cover mine. and when i curl into you in the middle of the night, it's not his warmth i'm missing; it's your touch i'm missing.

<3 you always